Sky

Near midnight here and I've moved out of the study to the dining table and the past few days I have done things like editing the written report and math questions and finishing The Bell Jar and cooked spinach omelettes and running in 35°C weather and swam till I was thirsty and exhausted and fell asleep by accident and talked to Dad about potential law internship this November and had my favourite fusion wraps for dinner and did more and more and more editing I feel like I am burning out and very soon I will turn into ashes that get carried away by the winds so easily forgotten and insignificant

Rust
Stardust

I am wondering how people get to my Formspring
I am wondering who actually asks me those questions
I am wondering how people get to this space
I am wondering who actually reads these posts

I am wondering what people think of me
But sometimes I don't want to know
I think about how much longer I have to take this
I feel uncertain
I feel vague
I feel disintegrated
I feel forgotten
I feel like dying