Class

Some nights I stay up thinking about classes I have to attend the next morning and they are mostly classes I no longer feel enthusiastic about because I think of the work that is 'packaged' with the lesson and that thought makes me shiver
Want to engage in a kind of learning that allows minimal interaction and expression and need for thought
I just want to sit there and absorb information like a sponge absorbing dishwashing liquid
When I look at my timetable I feel disgusted
About having to keep myself at a place I dislike for such long periods of time
Can't wait for uni where I can finally choose my own timetable and maybe be in the same school with people I feel happy with again

I think my social psycho has been partially defeated
Because I no longer feel like interaction is primal and necessary over there
Feel like if I were to walk away alone in the opposite direction as I always do
I will no longer have the urge to turn back and be less alone than I already am

Most people think that loneliness is scary
But it really isn't
Loneliness could be your friend
Only if you allowed it to be
Just like how you consciously choose your friends