I've been busying myself with errands lately and that makes me lots more satisfied than having a proper schedule. Today it's going to be another of those days again. I'm starting to recognise a pattern, that all this hooha in my life is just simply archived here but I don't reflect upon anything. That stings and annoys me to my wits. I like it better when life felt more intellectual.
Anyway last Saturday was national day and we hosted a tiny BBQ-family-dinner thing. It was fun using the new grill at home, it was charcoal and smokeless and it made our regular grills taste 10x better. There was lots of food we had chicken satay vegetable skewers prawns lemongrass pork pomelo salad and a full steaming pot of glorious, glorious popiah which also happened to last me for 2 more breakfasts the next few days. I made tiramisu for everyone and it was gone by the minutes but that was nice and it made me happy. It was also a part farewell/birthday dinner since we weren't planning for anything this year except our usual buffet on Dad's birthday. Don't feel like I needed a cake/party this year and it seemed wrong to spend extra costs on something I didn't feel was significant. The older I get the less celebratory of life I get, and oddly enough I don't think it's something saddening.
On Sunday I made some bucks with Qianying at a booth we booked months ago with old things I didn't want anymore and had to get rid of before I left. It was fun and tiring and standing the whole day made my legs painfully sore so I spent the rest of the night stretching them out in bed watching Suits. It's been a long time since I've watched shows (3 years) and it feels nice to watch a show that makes you feel smart. Also because I love law shows.
One of life's biggest ironies is you feel heaviest when you are the emptiest. I think I've rid myself of all this burdensome icky things, and I decided to take the fuck it approach. I've also dragged this post a little too long so I'm going to get off now and get out of the house I'll update this when I'm home/tomorrow ta
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