Running Into The Dark

Wow wee, each time I come back on here I realise that the number of days between each post keep increasing, and I chide myself for bad documenting but there's nothing else that really pushes me other than the empty spaces of life that deserve to be recorded. It's strange when you think of situations with the mindset of 'in that moment' and at the same time, another moment has passed and a new one is created.

It is a quiet, rainy Thursday afternoon. The same day next week will be my last day at home till I come back in December. Time is ticking and the days are spinning to the next quicker and quicker.

On the 20th I fucked my schedule up and missed my driving lesson, ran a full day of errands on the 21st and had a damn good dinner with lots of seafood at Edge in the evening, spent the morning of my 20th birthday crying then going for a raw vegan brunch with Mum and then doing a spa thing where I chose the hot bed but didn't break a sweat and proceeded for steamboat at home after that, took a driving lesson on the 23rd then had tofu salad and grilled fish with Tessa for lunch and Qianying came after that, had the most quarrelsome day of packing on the 24th and thank God I have accommodating friends who not only brought me gifts and came to see me but also surprised me with a video which I edited/combined and will link below. I spent this week mainly lounging at home and exhausting the hell out of my kitchen appliances before my home goes into total renovation while I'm gone.

This video is so personal but it means a lot and I'm afraid of losing it one day so it is now here for safe-keeping